Friday, October 22, 2010

Maybe I love you

maybe I just like the sound
But if you disappear
You'll still hear
When my heart hits the ground

Every touch of every scene
Is as beautifully broken as a bird without wings

All we have
holding us back
holding us back

For all we have
what's holding us back?

Friday, October 8, 2010


Saturday, October 2, 2010

Hello, October.

September's over and I am a year older.

One of the hardest thing to do is leaving your comfort zone. But you have to let go of the life you're familiar with and take the risk to live the life you are dreaming about.
You can waste your life building boundaries, or you can live your life crossing them.

I want to stop being down, I want to be positive again. I am making it a point to focus on happy thoughts. goes!

Things that makes me smile:

Painting my toenails candy red and wiggling them against my green curtains to create a red and green Christmas palette!
Since its only October and I can't possibly wait till December to be happy again, I decided to bring Christmas to me hehe.
Excuse me while I steal wisps of the jolly Christmas spirit in advance. :)

Spotting Doraemon's mosquito repellent when strolling in a drugstore! :)
Need I say more? :D

Finding the adorable toy soldiers I used to have in my home when I was a kid!
And rearranging them in positions...and prepare them for battle!

Finding out HAPPY FAMILY CARDS still exist!

Looking at my adorable little vintage satchel bag sitting comfortably on my lap. :)

And finally this......................

This picture cracks me up every time HAHA!


Friday, October 1, 2010

I am afraid of the answer.

I met a palm-reading man a week ago, who told me a few things about myself.
Some of my past, others of my future.

I'm 20 years old.

I've had 3 boyfriends. Correct.

I will live to be more than 80 years old. Hopefully correct.

I have about 16 friends whom I hold very close to my heart, but 5 to 6 of them are not fond of me.
I was taken off guard by this. I didn't know I make enemies, but then again I can't please everyone. I just hope they are not people who are too close to me.

I will be rich, but I will see deaths amongst people around me.
Now this, I fear. I fear goodbyes more than anything else in the world. My favourite aunt passed away the second year my family moved back to Kuching. I watched in silent horror as the cancer ate away the jovial and energetic woman I cared for like a second mother.
Now after this, I wonder if I was the cause of her death...

I will go abroad twice. After the first visit, I'll come back. On the second time, I'd stay away permanently.
If this is what I've always wanted, why do I feel a twinge of sadness when I hear this?

After studying my hand for a while, he fixed me with an odd concerned look.
"Child, why are you worrying? You worry from the second you wake up and you worry even after you fall asleep. You are not happy. You are tired. But you are so young, there is no reason for you to be this worried."

Why do I worry?