Hello, October.

September's over and I am a year older.

One of the hardest thing to do is leaving your comfort zone. But you have to let go of the life you're familiar with and take the risk to live the life you are dreaming about.
You can waste your life building boundaries, or you can live your life crossing them.

I want to stop being down, I want to be positive again. I am making it a point to focus on happy thoughts.

So...here goes!



Things that makes me smile:

Painting my toenails candy red and wiggling them against my green curtains to create a red and green Christmas palette!
Since its only October and I can't possibly wait till December to be happy again, I decided to bring Christmas to me hehe.
Excuse me while I steal wisps of the jolly Christmas spirit in advance. :)

Spotting Doraemon's mosquito repellent when strolling in a drugstore! :)
Need I say more? :D

Finding the adorable toy soldiers I used to have in my home when I was a kid!
And rearranging them in positions...and prepare them for battle!
GO SOLDIERS~!

Finding out HAPPY FAMILY CARDS still exist!

Looking at my adorable little vintage satchel bag sitting comfortably on my lap. :)




And finally this......................


This picture cracks me up every time HAHA!

THIS IS A STORY OF GIRL MEETS SALMON.
BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW UPFRONT, THIS IS A LOVE STORY.
THE GIRL'S ORGASMIC EXPRESSION SAYS IT ALL.
EPIC.

Bringing Niagara Falls to my eyes.

Holidays in K.K., basking myself in contentment, devoid of complaints.

When I'm not studying, I've been re-watching a few good, solid and sad movies.

A bit heavier than the chick-flick garbage I always seem to opt for.

Cold Mountain

My Sister's Keeper

The Holiday

Closer 

Tristan and Isolde.

Beautiful movies.

Captivating, all of them painted love as fleeting yet sought after, something beautiful that everyone desires to hold, but not everyone is allowed to keep.


Except for The Holiday, all of the movies suffered tragic endings.
I expected myself to be immensely disappointed by the endings, being a large fan of 'happily-ever-afters'.
But surprisingly, I was not.
I was only, left convinced that love is never easy, nor is it ever simple, and most importantly, it is not always meant to be.


Moving and heart-wrenchingly beautiful.

Jude Law starring in three out of the five is (obviously) an added bonus.

He's so delicious he makes me lick my lips like a savage beast.

I blame the accent. And those hypnotizing eyes.

A guy like him's a hazard to womankind.

Lydia's visiting soon :)

It been a long while since we've seen each other.

Miss all those time we've spent at her house, all those silly moments we share with each other.
All those late night talks we had with each other, all those times we were there for each other.
The girl is a doll. :)

She wants to perfect her camwhoring skills and make the kiss-flip book I told her about haha.
She wants to get one done for Gabe. So sweet! :)

Woo-hoo, can't wait!

Let's talk equations.

Exams = shitload amount of stress = enlarged appetite + slightly delusional + distorted mind

I shall elaborate.

Enlarged appetite means I also order crazy amount of pizzas.

Modern technology has made food so accessible.

Its pure evil.

Dominoes pizza is only several clicks away @www.dominoes.com.my . I don't even need to pick up the damn phone to make an order. And we all have been through the hassle of phone ordering, being put on a hold- the Malaysian customer service is famous for that. =.=

So back to the whole evil pizzas topic.

There is something very wrong with Dominoes.

I mean look at it.

Easy and efficient ordering, prompt 30 minutes or less delivery time, hot sizzling pizza at your doorstep with an ever polite delivery man.

WHERE IN MALAYSIA IS THERE SUCH A SERVICE?

I smell something fishy! *narrows eyes*

and no darling its not from my favorite Tuna Temptation pizza.

So I have a theory about Dominoes.

I secretly think they are a secret organization set up to conquer the world. O_O

They are a well-oiled organization and they paved an ultimate way into our hearts - through our stomach!

Its a conspiracy I tell you!

But anyway, I can't be a powerpuff girl and save the world because I have to save myself from exams. :(

So I delude myself from the evil plans lurking beneath Dominoes' innocent cover and welcome the delivery man with a blood-thirsty smile.

Blood thirsty for the pizza of course, not the delivery man. Unless he has Matthew Mcconaughey's butt.

Then I'd pay the man, take my (holy) pizza and put it on the dining table.

Clutching a slice, I'd automatically walk towards the balcony.

Which was what I did today, and then I saw an eagle. You see, I live on the 24th floor of my condominium, and therefore eagles spotting is very normal due to the height.

Then I have a very ugly picture painted in my head.

The eagle, with its sharp eagle eyes, diving down to my balcony and STEALING MY SLICE OF PIZZA.

O_O

The picture is too horrific to imagine.

I stepped away from the balcony. I do not wish to fight an eagle for my pizza.

Stop giving me the look. My pizza is very important ok! A girl needs her nutrition!

I DON'T LIKE TO TAKE CHANCES WITH MY FOOD!

O_O

Okay now I guess you have the better understanding of the equation, which I will retype to save you from scrolling up because I am so kind.

Exams = shitload amount of stress = enlarged appetite + slightly delusional + distorted mind

I love kids.

I think they are absolutely adorable.

They see the world in a different light, everything is magical.

They are genuine and their laugh is amazingly contagious.

They are new beautiful little things that are curious about everything.

But after sometime spent babysitting my little nephew. I'd like to er reconsider my position on being a mother.

Don't get me wrong I love my nephew to bits. *shifty eyes*

I just prefer to, you know...*shrugs*...love him from a distance.

And then Suri Cruise came strolling by

all smiles

doe-eyed

and restored my faith in reproduction.

I MUST START TO STUDY AS OF NOW.

Maybe after that chocolate. And that pee. And that Patrick Dempsey.

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I think it is because I am extremely deprived...

being in a long distance relationship at the moment and watching half naked men in Heath Ledger films does not make it any easier for a normal teenage girl with raging hormones

...that I find myself subconsciously looking for substitutes online to ease my...sexual(?) frustration.

And this is what I caught myself looking at....

OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER ok you got the poi-ANDOVERANDOVER AGAIN.

SHIT.

This is some hot stuff.

I love LOVE LOVE how he "warmed up" and how his hands cupped and caressed her cheeks as his lips mov- okyeaIshouldstop.

The point is...

T_T

I NEED TO BE KISSED LIKE THAT.

AT LEAST ONCE IN MY LIFE.

FOR MY LIFE TO BE COMPLETE.

SO I CAN DIE HAPPY.

Sigh I love The Notebook.

DUH mary which girl doesn't??!

Eleven Years.

I re-watched the old movie 10 Things I Hate About You yesterday.

Heath Ledger is/was the sexiest man on earth.

His death was a gigantic loss to womankind. I cannot accept it. Because I can never enough of his movies, and um his butt, and and his sexy delicious Australian accent.

My future husband needs to learn that accent.

I'd get aroused immediately and it would save up tons of time otherwise needed with foreplay.

Okay.

Sorry.

TMI.

Patrick: Some asshole paid me to take out this really great girl.
Kat: Is that right?
Patrick: Yeah, but I screwed up. I, um, I fell for her.

Julia Stiles is one lucky bitch to get to be Kat in the movie. But it must be said that she too, is a wonderful actress and she definitely portrayed the character perfectly in the movie. Shir, you should watch this movie (if you haven't already) because I'm sure you will love Julia Stiles. :) Kat's character reminds me of you somehow. Headstrong, beautiful and cool; she does not care about fitting in at all.

Its one of my favorite movies. Joseph Gordon-Levitt was in it as well, the guy from 500 Days of Summer - a beautiful indie movie released just last year.

He looked so young back then.

Oh shit.

It just struck me how time flies.

Its been 11 years since 10 Things I Hate About You.